Mom tries to use a Chainsaw

Mom tries to use a Chainsaw


– I have loved moving
out here to the country. I love getting to work with my hands. I love what feels like exercise, but I’m being productive and getting something
done at the same time. I have been so tired the last three weeks. I’ve just been draining. Like, no matter how much
sleep I get, I’m tired, and I am tired of being tired. I had my blood drawn yesterday. I’m waiting to get my
results back from my doctor, and see what he says about
my thyroid and everything, but I’m just exhausted. I came outside today, and I was like, it actually feels good outside. It’s not scorching hot, and the wind was blowing. It’s not right now, but
maybe the breeze will pick up Oh, it is right now. That’s awesome. I just need to be outside. I need to do something
that’s gonna give me life, and something that I have learned since moving out here to Five Acres is, working outside gives
me life, and I enjoy it. You look ready. (laughs) You ready to go work? – Mm-hm. – [Mom] Let’s hook up the
trailer to the four-wheeler, although, did I hear that the
four-wheeler has a hard time getting up the hill with the trailer? – If you go all the way down the hill, like, into that little trail down there. – [Mom] That’s where I need to go, so I can’t bring the trailer? – That little circle
down there, those two? – [Mom] Yeah. – Yeah, you can’t bring that trailer. (Mom sighs) – Well, let’s ride the
four-wheeler down there, and I’ll show you what I want to do, and then we’ll figure
out what we need to do. I really want to clear
out an area of our land to do a garden, and there’s an area that’s already fenced off, but it’s all overgrown
with super big weeds that have now turned into trees, but I want to clear it out and see if it’s worth working on, but I’m gonna have Zeke come help. Over the last few years, I have been trying to learn how I feel, just trying to keep
track of what’s going on in my head, in my body, in my spirit, and what do I need to do to be healthy? Postpartum was the worst with Olivia than the rest of them, although I think the rest of them were also very hard. I can really tell that because of how me and Tim were doing. We always had a really
hard time the first year after having a baby, in our marriage, and I think a lot of that
had to do with my health. After the twins, we started learning how I can get healthy, and learning how to navigate
those really hard seasons with a newborn, and lack of sleep, and hormones everywhere, so
I’m working as hard as I can, talking with the doctors. Can’t wait to hear back
with what he has to say. And just try to stay on top of this. Is this the area where four-wheeler won’t come
back up with the trailer? – Mm-hm, down the hill right there. – [Mom] If we go down
here, that next part? – Yeah, right over there. – [Mom] Oh, okay. So, I already have a little pile here, so what if we just bring
the trailer to right here to carry stuff up? Do you think that would work? – Yeah. – [Mom] I think I might have to back it up with the trailer on. Do you think I can do that? – Maybe. – I’ve never backed up a trailer. This could be interesting. So, I’ve already cut this stuff down. We had to be super careful ’cause there’s some that
have thorns on them. There’s a lot of thorns in here, and look over here, somebody already tore
down part of a fence. There’s, like, a fence post, and a concrete thing
that was in the ground, and look at all the barbed wire. Well, I guess it’s not barbed wire. It’s just wire fencing. So I wonder if this whole area right here was fenced as well. Here’s the fenced in area, so I kinda want to start with clearing out this
little part right here, and then go into there
and start clearing it out. It looks kinda creepy. – [Zeke] That creek doesn’t look like there’s any water in it. – [Mom] No, I don’t see any wa– Eh, no, it just looks muddy. I wonder if it only has
water when it rains. This would be cool, though, to try to clear out a path
down to the creek, to play in. – [Zeke] The chainsaw. Chainsaw, chainsaw. – Yeah, we have to get the chainsaw through a lot of these
vines that are overgrown, and then get the weed wacker
after all these tall things. I like the look of this
fence part right here. It’s kind of a fun old fence. Let’s go back up and get the
trailer and the chainsaw. (lively pop music) Ready to do this again? Do you think we’re gonna get stuck? – Yeah. (Mom laughs) – I hope not. Let’s find out. This place is very close, Zeke, but I don’t know how to do this. – [Zeke] You quit? – Let’s see if we can
figure anything else out to clear this place up. – [Zeke] What if we just
bring the trailer down there? – If I bring it down a little farther, then I can back this up without it on, and then we can hook it back up. – [Zeke] Mm-hm. – Okay. (trailer rumbles) Woo, we got it where I wanted it. – I’ll be me. (Mom laughs) – That’s a little more
difficult than I expected. Well, I might need to practice backing up a trailer a little bit. All right, I think we
first need to go ahead and get that pile that
I already have there, or keep cutting stuff down. – I don’t like this weather. – I know, it’s hot. I just grabbed two right-hand gloves. I needed to grab the
left hand of this one. I didn’t look to see which one
I actually had of this one. I really don’t want to walk up that hill, and I don’t want to back
the trailer back up. – [Zeke] I can walk up. – We’ll see if this works. – [Zeke] I’ll go get
another glove for you. – Okay. (soft pop music) Can you climb it up? – Probably not. – [Mom] Try it, see
how high you can climb. Just be careful, ’cause
you’ll land in thorns. Should we leave that
there for you to play on? ‘Kay. I don’t think we have an option. I don’t think it’s coming down. – I think it is if you cut it at first, get up there.
– That’s true. Yeah, but would it be more fun to just have it hanging to play on? Ha-ha, I could’ve said timber on that one. (chainsaw whirs) Uh oh. – [Zeke] What? – The chain came off. There’s a gear down on this underside that helps keep it turning,
that turns the chain. Here’s a place for a flathead screwdriver. I wonder if we need to
get something to turn that as we’re trying to put the chain back on. – [Zeke] Or maybe that
takes this off so you can– – [Mom] Just get in there and fix it? So do we have to quit? – I think so. (Mom laughs) ‘Cause I’m excited. – [Mom] All right, I guess
we call it good for today. Man, I am so bummed. I was so excited. I at least wanted to be
able to open this gate, and it’s not gonna happen.
– You can get through there. – [Mom] I know, but I want to be able to open and close it, but also, I don’t know if that could’ve
happened today anyways, ’cause it looks like the
ground’s all grown up around it. Like, it corroded or something. – [Zeke] Yeah, like, that
tree just goes in and out. – Yeah, so this gate has not been used in a really long time. Let’s load that thing up. (clicks tongue) Bummer. I’m so bummed. I hate starting projects like this. I knew I wouldn’t be able to do it all today, but I at least wanted to accomplish one goal. It looks a lot more clear than when we first came down here, so I guess that’s a good goal. You can actually see all
of the fence from here now. Well, if I can’t have fun
working outside with a chainsaw, I might as well have fun driving this thing around a little bit. That is a fun way to cool off. (laughs) Anybody ever put a chain
back on a chainsaw before? I haven’t, but I want to learn. I know I need gloves, preferably one of each hand. Yay, I got a match. (laughs) And it looked like I needed a flathead. Go with the big one. See what I can do. I am so close, I can feel it. I figured out that the chain has to go behind this gear thing, not in between like I
was originally thinking, so I have it behind there, but now, I can’t get it to stretch enough to just go on that. I might have to wait for Tim or his brother-in-law to
come and fix this for me. So close. I know what to do, I just
don’t know how to do it. That’s it, I give up. I’m starting to get frustrated, and this is not what I came outside to do, so I am just gonna quit, and we’re gonna leave it, and go find something else
that I can do, maybe shower. (laughs) That will feel refreshing and good to me, ’cause I am just ready
to start feeling better. I have had so many seasons, after Olivia, well, I guess between, what is it? November and now of feeling good, and then having seasons
of not feeling good. Then we’d change my medication, and I’d feel good for
a little while longer, and then we gotta change it again, and it’s just been like
a roller coaster ride of feeling good and not good, and trying to figure out
what makes me feel good. It’s hard to not get frustrated whenever I’m not feeling well, because I know what it
feels to feel good now, and I want it so bad. This is one of those things that, I was really hoping
that this would work out, and I would be able to do
this, and have fun today, and get some work done, and I did, and it was great, and I was so happy to have Ezekiel here working with me, but now, I know my limit of, I just need to say, you know what, I’m done for today. I need to go find something else. The thing that’s been
the most important to me through all of this is
just focusing on God, and what he’s doing, what I can learn, how I can still serve my family, how I can still be me through all of this. I have had so many years of feeling guilty for doing things that I want to do, but in the last few years, I started realizing I
have to put myself first, I have to put my health first, and take care of myself,
make sure I’m healthy in order to be able to
take care of my family. Just reminding myself, like, no, I need a clear head, I
need to have some time to have fresh air, do
something that I enjoy, and I have loved moving
out here to the country. I love getting to work with my hands. I love what feels like exercise, but I’m being productive,
and getting something done at the same time, and that
right there makes me feel joy, being able to physically
see the trees come down, and see the space clear out, and see my son enjoy having time with me, and hanging out, and
spending time with him. Those are the things that
I really, really love, and it’s been fun to just explore. Like, last year, I would’ve never guessed that getting a chainsaw in my hand and cutting down some
trees would be something that I would call fun, but it is, and I enjoy it, and it’s just a blast to try new things, and just be outside, enjoy the fresh air, as hot as it was when I thought it was gonna be cool. I wish you could feel
the breeze right now. It’s just so peaceful to just sit here, and enjoy the wind, and
breathe the fresh air. If you don’t have a chainsaw, and you can’t get out there
and cut down some trees, go outside, go to a park, sit in your yard, sit on your front porch, just go outside and listen to
the trees blowing in the wind, watching the leaves fall, (mouse clicks) and enjoy some quiet with a little bit of
noise in the background, but just being able to
listen to the wind even, and watch what it does is just peaceful.

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